Wednesday, December 28

who else can you talk about ass-pubes with?

I haven't been able to blog much lately...

Like I have SUCH an exciting life that I get that's not it.

Lots has been going on but my lack of blogging is due to not wanting to bore you with emotional, badly written novels about my sister.

They leave tomorrow morning. My sister, Dan and the babies.

Will and I are driving to the airport to say goodbye tomorrow morning...very early.

Holly said I owed her a coffee if I cried, lol. Funny shit, Holly. That means I'm already in debt to her 20-30 coffees...

Riley and Miles made me realize emotions I had that I had no idea I could experience, and them moving is the same. I had no idea I could be so sad about something.

Holly said I was kinda hermet like the other day...she's right...except with her. I would/will always make time for my sister. No questions asked.

I can't believe sh'es not gonna be across the street from me anymore.

The furthest we've been is a 4 hour drive...I don't know if I can handle her being in a different province.

This is all very selfish of me, I realize. This is the best thing for her and her family and I'm excited for her to start her new life and make friends and tell me all about it. Don't get me wrong. I'm so pumped for her. This is an amazing opportunity!

I could always tell Holly anything; no matter how disgusting, graphic, horrible, self serving, ridiculous or alcoholic without judgement. She had always experienced everything I needed advice about so she is my sounding board...thank god for Skype!

This is a great decision for them and I'm happy Holly and her family is going to have a great life! It's going to be awesome when I get to come visit cause I've never been to Alberta and hopefully I can go in February sometime.

I can't sleep though...Holly is like my bestfriend...I need her and I'm terribly upset she's leaving...I'm gonna be abusing Skype like crazy!

But again...I remind myself that this the best decision for her family and a great opportunity and I'm comforted a little that at the very least she'll be Alberta-rich!

Sunday, December 4

Good weekend

Will and I are having a lovely weekend together.

Saturday we cleaned the basement, returned out empties (got 36 bucks back!) and had a small pizza dinner. Will went out with some of his friends for a few hours and then came home to watch SNL and cuddle.

Today we woke up late, took forever to get out of bed, drank coffee (I had tea) VERY leisurely, then got dressed and went for a walk. We actually walked through the military graveyard, which was beautiful and totally peaceful.

We were out for about 50 minutes, which was the most I could handle. I strained my achilles running on Saturday so I've had to be gentle on my feet. We got home and settled in to watch Home Alone 1 and 2...Mulligan did not enjoy it.

Just taking it easy before another week begins!

Friday, December 2

Friday Five

Fives things I was happy for this week:

1. Thin crust spinach pizza

2. Running the mile in under 10 minutes 5 days in a row...woot!

3. Warm kitty cuddles

4. E.I coming through for me!

5. Homemade butternut squash soup

Thursday, December 1

The Mo in No Mo

FINALLY Movember is over and Will has shaved off his 'stache. I hate it, every year I hate it. But this year he managed to raise $90.00 towards Prostate Cancer research, and because of that fact I am at peace with his yearly facial distraction. We took this one last picture to commemorate the month.

Usually I participate with No-Shave November...your supposed to not shave anything for the month. Well not shaving my armpits is not an option, other place that I refuse to let I just stick with the legs. This year I only lasted 3 days...what a loser I am. Last year I didn't shave at all in November and man was I uncomfortable by the end of the month. Word got around work (when I had a job) and all the girls wanted to see (and some touch) my man legs...the guys were pretty repelled. Bah, what do they know.

Wednesday, November 30


so turns out ei was dumb again...but in a good way...

so i got more then double then i got last week.

of course there will be no back pay for the mistake, even though it was the gov't error.

i'm just impressed they admitted it and fixed it.

Friday, November 25

that was fast

I didn't expect to get my EI so quickly. I was informed I was approved on Monday and received my EI on Wednesday. Thank god. It's a very small amount of money but it still helps. Will should be getting his review and raise (fingers crossed) in the next 2 weeks so we're gonna be cruising!

Holly and Dan are coming over tonight for one last hurrah. Dan is leaving tomorrow morning for Alberta so he planned to stay the night here anyway and we were going to take him to the airport on Saturday. I thought it would be fun if Holly came out as well and we could spend an evening eating appetizers, drinking wine and watching shitty movies. That way we could spend one final time, the four of us, with no baby responsibilities, and Holly could drive Dan to the airport in the morning and be able to say goodbye there. They should be out here sometime in the late afternoon and I have some prep work to do for all the food I'm making!

Wednesday, November 23

My cats knocked everything over and smashed multiple glasses this morning, our power is gonna be off for like 5 hours today and my uninsulated house is freezing.

Happy Wednesday, all!

Monday, November 21

Oh Em Gee...finally!

As you may remember I was laid off in September, and then fired from another job at the end of September...shitty balls.

I've been trying to get approved for EI since the first layoff. I've been appealed, questioned and denied...more then once.

They sent me a questionnaire about why I was fired to determine if I could receive EI from that, I received the questionnaire on a Friday, filled it out, and send it back on Monday. That Wednesday I received a letter saying I was denied because I hadn't sent the questionnaire back fast enough. So then I had to appeal that decision. Another office in Service Canada sent me a letter denying my EI because I hadn't been filling out my reports...which I hadn't been doing because my EI was denied.

All very confusing but finally this morning I received a letter confirming they reviewed my appeal and "rescinded" their decision to deny me. Once both of my severance amounts are deducted I'll start receiving money...good timing too cause the way it was looking no one was gonna get anything for Christmas.

Feed Me!!!!

Wednesday, November 16

Cleaning Day!

I always find it best to do as much cleaning before lunch as possible, as I lose total motivation after even just a snack.

So are 11:30ish I started my cleaning.

Living room and kitchen - top to bottom, 3 loads of laundry, drain unclogged, sheets changed, kitty shit-boxes cleaned...then I needed a snack...dammit.

Well Holly stopped by to get some food. The movers are there today to officially move them out of this shit-hole. So after she left I sat down for a quick snack with plans to clean the bathroom and organize some bedroom stuff...that was a big mistake as I have no motivation to get back up.

But the bathroom desperately needs a scrub down...I can hear the toilet begging me to clean I shall solider on...

This Saturday Holly's friends are having a goodbye dinner for her at Baton Rouge and they invited Will and I, so that should be a good time. I've never eaten there before, so hopefully they have at lease a small vegetarian selection. Or I'll have a liquid dinner...those are my favourite.

Monday, November 14

Can't sleep, so I'm up drinking milk and watching shitty reality tv.

So, Dan got the job in Alberta! Hurray for them! It's such an awesome opportunity for there family, but I'm gonna miss the shit out of them. It's gonna suck not having Holly across the street...a 5 minute walk away.

I can't keep what's happening straight, so many things are happening so quickly. Dan leaves, Holly goes to C.P, all their shit goes, Holly and my mom goes, then my dad some point I hope my mom comes back, lol. This is all happening by the end of the month...crazy how fast things happen sometimes.

Tuesday, November 8


So being home all the time gives me lots of opportunity to make awesome meals, and try new recipes. My favourite is what I'm making tonight. Now this is a meat sauce, so I can't eat it, but it makes so much and Will loves it enough to eat it for the next 2-7 meals, lol.

This is what I like to call my "I don't give a fuck" pasta sauce/chilli. It can be used as either. It involves tomato sauce, water, onions, mushrooms, peppers, ground beef and/or spicy sausage, every spice you can find, any other shit in your fridge you wanna put in it. I had some black beans that I didn't think I was going to use soon and some leftover pizza sauce that I shoved in. I'll have Will taste test it when he gets home and adjust the spices for me (which is the one thing that sucks about being a vegetarian...).

I went to Walmart with my sister today and saw this...exciting. I realized I haven;t had poutine since I became a vegetarian. Wow. I stopped eating meat the May of grade 7...I'm now 26...4 months away from 27...that's a long ass time. So I got this and I'm going to make a meat gravy for Will and have a poutine night sometime! I'm excited.

Will also really enjoyed when Dan and Holly were over and we had Indian food. Holly made the meat feeders Butter Chicken, he was then obsessed. So I found this paste, about 4 bucks cheaper then the sauce itself, just add water and we've got some em effing Butter Chicken. Beeeeeeiitch.

I also bought brown sugar and I'm gonna try making cookies. The first and only time I ever attempted muffins I forgot the fruit and they turned out hard...that's the closest to a cookie I've ever made...

Sunday, November 6

I'm so excited to go wedding dress shopping that I've been doing a lot of googling of wedding things the last few days.

I love this bouquet, but the majority of feathers would be black and dark purple.

This is beautiful as well, again with purple not red.

Love this, maybe just a little darker. This isn't actually a bridesmaid dress, but this is the general idea I'm into right now.

Possibly these hanging from the roof. Not in these colour, obviously. lol. In black or purple...

And I want to wear something dark, with feathers and a small veil type thing. I think it's called a blusher...I don't know. One of those veils that cover half the face...but in black...

I have lots of ideas...we'll see which ones actually materialize...

Friday, November 4

Friday 5

Five things that made me happy this week:

1. Family dinners - quiche will Will's fam, and paneer with mine...YUM!

2. Seeing Holly's babies try cereal for the first time...who am I kidding EVERYTHING they do is cute and I'm happy to see.

3. Being 1 year away from officially being Mrs. van Nieuwenhuyze, and getting roses from Will! He's never given me roses before.

4. KFB - Wedding Planning Edition! Mandi and Heather (bridesmaids) have confirmed they will be visiting the weekend of November 12th. There shall be wine, wedding dress shopping, wine, chips, terrible music, and pictures of H passed out with her mouth open!

5. Not quitting. I fucked up, 4 days in a row I fucked up. I gained weight back. But I got right back on track. Working out (ran over 4 miles today) and eating healthy. Maybe I wont lose as fast as I want, but at least I wont quit.

Thursday, November 3


Wow, I need to cleanse myself from the last 4 days. There was a lot of wine and food consumed, basically ruined everything I've done the last 10 days...nice eh. I'm such an idiot. Although it was friggin' delicious. And it's not my fault there were multiple events on 4 consecutive days.

Well it happened and logical Siobhan is fighting with emotional Siobhan to realize that I can't go back and it was enjoyable while it was going on. The best thing to do: pull up my socks, get right back on track and work my butt off for another 9 days and hopefully recover what I'd done so I can ruin it again.

KFB is happening on the 12th so I'm going to be drinking more and eating more. We're also gonna take a trip into Sinders to look at some wedding dresses!!! Ahh, I'm incredibly nervous and excited. I know what I want but I'm terrified that I'm going to look like a heffer in everything.

1 year and 3.5 hours I'll be married. Weird!

Sunday, October 30


I hate myself today. Maybe not hate, but dislike and confusion are accurate.

How exactly does one gain 2lbs while eating 1200 calories and exercising every day. This boggles my mind. I don't get it and I refuse to believe it. Actually it's depressed me greatly and I would like to curl up in bed all day.

Putting on muscles would be great, but I've done this before and this isn't how my body works.

I'm fucking grouchy. I can't wait for tomorrow...for one day to just not do this...

Thursday, October 27

damn jeans

I'm wearing jeans!

Stay with me, here. This actually is exciting.

I haven't been comfortable in a pair of jeans in a really long time. Either the waist was uncomfortable, or the thighs too tight.

I would wear a pair of jeans for the exact amount of time I was out of the house and then change right back into jogging pants or leggings.

I went for a walk with Holly, my mom, and her babies around 2:00pm and it's now 5:00pm and I'm still wearing them. I didn't even notice I still had them on until right now.

Jeans are my mortal enemy...actually pants are my mortal enemy but I'm comfortable right now. Weird.

Wednesday, October 26


Yesterday my sister and I took her babies for a walk around the non-ghetto 'hood across the street from us. Walked for about an hour. With the 30 minute jog I put in that morning I worked out for like 87 minutes yesterday and burned 500 calories, and strangely enough it was the first day in 7 days that I haven't lost weight. Oh well, I did lose 6lbs in 7 days so I can't really complain. Although I was kinda bummed, I was hoping for a lbs a day, but I've still done well.

November is gonna be a messy month for overeating, lots of reasons to cheat. My KFB girls are coming for a visit, Will's birthday, and if Holly and Dan move we'll have a going away part I'm sure. But that's okay. I'm gonna keep up with my running and eating well. The days I fuck up I will just enjoy and not punish myself or feel guilty for. Ya, that was all real easy to type, let's hope it happens.

I have 21.4lbs total to lose, 15.4lbs now, and I think I can get very close to that by Christmas.

Monday, October 24

im awesome

Finally tried spaghetti squash.

Holy shit its good, and so effing simple to make.

Cut it in half, place cut side down, shove in oven for 40 minutes....DONERS!!!

I put cooked tomatoes and garlic on it but it would have been yummy with just parm. cheese...or even pesto.

As long as you disassociate it with the texture of real noodles then you will really enjoy it. Trust me, it's nothing like spaghetti, other than the shape.

And only around 80 calories for 2 cups. It's my new favourite food. The one squash I bought has about 4 servings in it, so it's well worth the money.

I recommend everyone try it once.

healthy and happy

I am very encouraged.

I've eaten so well the last 5 days, and I've worked out every day. NO cheating, not even once. All though I thought about it every second of those 5 days.

I just wanna sit down and eat a whole bag of Miss Vickies. Yumby! But I hate how I feel and how I feel about myself when I do that, so it's pretty easy to not give in.

I also have decided to just run. Run until I'm pooped and then I'm done. I've still managed to work out over 30 minutes every day. Telling myself I have to work out for an hour just makes me cranky. This way if I'm feeling a little down one day I can jog for 15-20 minutes and still burn enough calories for it to be worth it. I also managed to run for 5km straight, which I have NEVER done before! Took me 41 minutes, not exactly Olympic quality, but 4 minutes faster then I've ever gone before. And it can only get better from there. If I keep this up I may be able to run a 10km in the spring...

I have lost weight, which is fantastic. But I'm also feeling more positive about myself. I don't think I've called myself fat for a couple of days...and that's awesome. I call usually call myself fat on an hourly basis.

Obviously I will be cheating. Will's birthday is coming up, and I believe my KFB girls are coming for a visit sometime in November. But no diet will work if you deprive yourself of everything. I found these McCain Spinach Thin Crust Pizza.... 170 calories for 1/4 of the pizza. As long as you don't eat the whole thing (or burn 500 calories working out that day) it's still decent for you. Spinach is health food, right?

My "official" weigh in will be on Wednesday morning. I have a goal weight in mind, which I wont be sharing...unless I reach it.

Sunday, October 23

Four days straight for good eatin' and working out.

Ran 5km straight for the first time - EVER!

Feeling great.

Gonna weight in tomorrow.

I'm nervous.

Thursday, October 20

shut up

So I sat down with myself to settle our unfinished business.

My body basically told me to stop being such a fucking pussy and do it.

I I strapped on my shoes and recommitted myself to jogging. Jogged for 30 minutes straight. It felt amazing.

Ate really well yesterday and am doing great today.

Decided I need to try quinoa again...after a previously failed attempt.

I bet I can get down to my goal weight by Christmas.

Wednesday, October 19

unfinished business

I can't keep up with this thing. Even being out of work and home all the time I still manage to neglect it.


A couple of nights ago...or maybe yesterday, while watching Biggest Loser, Will and I were just chatting about the show and the goings on and he looked at me and said that I could do it in like a week. I could get where I want to be in a week. He's wrong, it would take a little while longer, but it kinda hit me that it's only me that can do it. And I can. So why don't I.

I love running, so why don't I do it?
I lost over 80 pounds, so why is this 20 such a pain in my ass?
Why am I so out of control?
I love vegetables and fruits, I love being active, and I miss liking my body. So why do I keep overeating and sitting on my ass?
I'm eating my feelings, I know that. I wish I could identify which feeling I was eating that didn't exist the last time I lost all the weight.

I sometimes feel like it was easy last time I did this...but it wasn't. It was a pain in the ass then as well. I could sit in my bedroom and stare at myself and cry for hours. It's was emotionally exhausting.

And I didn't lose 80lbs overnight, and I didn't gain back these 30lbs in a week.

My body and I have unfinished business...and I plan to take care of it asap...

Monday, October 3


My sweety is coming home today. It's been a long four days. I got fired Thursday, then the cat started puking. Friday he wouldn't walk and puked up some blood. He hasn't been home since and has been on quite the journey around Ottawa. Good news though cause now we have a vet for him and we're going to get Mulligan in as well for a check up. Man-o-man is having a cat expensive. It was the hardest decision but also the easiest to spend the money. He's part of our family and I love him. As long as his potassium hasn't come back up (and there is no reason it would) he will be home at 1pm today! Yay!

Friday, September 30

i just want my sweet boy to be okay

So I got fired for no reason, literally none. They can't give me a reason, they just did it. And now my cat is very sick and at the vets. Costing me a shit ton of money. I have to do it. He's part of my family and I will pay whatever to get him healthy and home. My brother in-law Dan brought me wine....he is incredibly thoughtful and I was so surprised and thankful for the thought. The vet seems very positive but I'm still an emotional wreck. I'll update more later.

Friday, September 23

still nothing

I still don't have my computer back, so the blogging shall remain spotty until it's fixed or I get a new one.

Saturday, September 17

Fer (that's french for iron)

I've always been moody, our family seems to breed moody women. Like super moody. For the last 2 years I've been in a bad mood at least once a day.

The other day Will finally had a mini freak-out about it and informed me he couldn't handle my moods anymore. So we had a long long talk about it and kind of resolved it. Went back to work the next day and hear that iron actually effects your moods. And because I'm vegetarian I know I am low on iron, which maybe is effecting my moods. huh.

So I informed Will and we immediately went to Shoppers and bought some iron and started taking it right away. I started taking my multi-vit again as well, and vit-c because apparently it helps the iron get absorbed faster.

Well it's been 4 days and I've never felt so good. Not one single bad mood or grump. It's probably a combination of getting a new job I like, the pills and finally talking to Will about it. But whatever it is, I finally feel good.

I told Will that I knew when I was being a bitch but I couldn't stop myself. I guess it was a mixture of lots of shit in my life at that time. Getting laid off seems to be more and more exactly what I needed. Financially, mentally and for my relationship.

I'm happy and excited for the future. I'll be moving from the training clinic to my own clinic in the next couple of weeks. And we're going to look at townhouses in Barrhaven, which is a huge upgrade from this dump of a 'hood we live in now. I'm excited for the future!

Monday, September 12

s dub

I only got the chance to start the grieving process for Sun Media. But instead of that I got a new job and bought a 50 inch plasma HDTV.

Thanks for the severance, Sun Media. You had to close, and me and my giant T.V accept that.

Sometimes decisions you make do not make everyone happy, and some of your decisions are silly and hurtful, but me, my giant T.V and higher paying job accept your apology.

Although my giant TV was kind of an asshole for a bit. I had to remove the seats from my car to get it home, and putting together the TV stand was goddamn annoying. It's worth it though. And tonight Will and I are going to get a high def box so we can fully enjoy our new tv. I can't wait to watch Big Brother in HD, my god Rachael is gonna look so gross, lol. Then we can watch HD TV and have our taco night!

We moved our downstairs TV to our room and I offered our smaller TV to Holly for free, cause I know she wants a TV for their bedroom. I called and texted her about it but she's not answering right now. I don't know if she's not getting my texts and calls or if she's ignoring me. Either way, the TV is going in the garbage next week.

So today is my last of 2 days of unemployment. I guess I'll do some laundry and clean the house up, there isn't much else for me to do. Although I sound like I'm bragging I do know how incredibly lucky I am to have found a new job the day after getting laid off. I would have quit Sun Media Friday anyway, so this lay-off happened at the perfect time. And I do wish everyone there the best of luck finding a better job, where your respected and not lied to.

Saturday, September 10

bad then good

I still don't have a new computer so I'm quickly using Wills when I can.

So Coles notes of my life:

11am Thursday - get laid off, the whole call centre is closed, I am out of a job.
1pm Thurdsday - job interview.
2pm Friday - get new job.

And I still get my severance so we're gonna buy a new tv and a dining room set! Awesome. I start my new job on Tuesday! Wish me luck!

Thursday, September 8

Laid off.

Need to drink.

Updates later...

Tuesday, September 6

Are you stressed yet?

So when do I start getting stressed about this wedding thing? Cause I'm not. And people keep asking me if I am, like I'm supposed to be sweating and power drinking due to all the stress. We still have MORE then a year, and I realize this year will probably fly by but I'm still not stressed yet. I have a lot of time left to worry about things.

Right now I'm just enjoying being engaged and occasionally buying something wedding related when we get a 40% off coupon for Michael's. We have random adorable napkins and our invitations already.

We have our guest list ready, and almost all the addresses (getting addresses out of Will's family seems harder then it should be.) We picked colours, theme, location (just have to make the down-payment), we have an idea for the DJ and photographer, honeymoon location picked, wedding parties asked and confirmed, and the date picked. Just got to put it all into motion.

I realize its going to get stressful at some point, I just don't get why everyone thinks that has to be now. I just want to enjoy the engagement before I start being a bitch about wedding planning, har har har, nice joke, eh. I'm always a bitch.

Please fire me.

I'm useless today. I did so little at work, which was a feat considering I have zero motivation today. I sucked at work. I did. I should be fired for that massacre of an 8 hour shift I just completed. Fingers crossed no one noticed, cause I wont be surprised if that was my final hurrah. I'm literally going to have to make Will propel my legs to actually go for a run tonight...

Friday, September 2

Not feelin' it

I've been working out a lot but I'm not seeing or feeling any changes. It's ridiculously frustrating. I need a glass of wine, but this doesn't mean I'm giving up. It means I worked out 4 days already this week and I deserve a motherfucking glass or 3 of wine. And I'm gonna freaking enjoy it.

So my life is so pathetic this is what has been plaguing me the last few days. How much cheese is 30g (1 oz)? My cheese is 120 calories for 30 grams, I assume each slice is a gram, but Will insists my slices are so thin that 4 or 5 slices would be 30 grams. Goddamn, I'm confused. I was informed it's the size of 4 cubes the size of dice...but I don't eat my cheese in cubes, I eat them in slices. The trial and tribulations of a cheese addict on a diet...

I'm very pleased its a long weekend, I feel like I need it. There are some very good things happening for us in the next few months. Something good (fingers crossed) for me this week, and something good (fingers crossed) for us by December. More news on that as it develops...but it's exciting, I assure you.

And I finally found a picture of how I'm gonna get my nails done for the wedding. Crazily enough, it was Will who found this design and suggested it. I just love it, so cool and funky...and non-traditional!

Busy Day

Happy Birthday to my awesome and beautiful sister Holly!

And Happy Anniversary to my loving and always understanding parents!

I love you all!

Thursday, September 1

silly quiz

1) Are your parents married or divorced? Married 33 years tomorrow.
2) Are you a vegetarian? Yup, going on 14 years I believe.
3) Do you believe in Heaven? No.
4) Have you ever come close to dying? Not that I know of.
5) What jewelery do you wear daily? My engagement ring
7) Do you eat the stems of broccoli? Yes, I love every part of broccoli!
8) Who is your hair stylist? I cut my own hair with kitchen scissors...embarassing.
9) Ever have any surgery? If so, what? Nothing at all..well I had a wart frozen off when I was like 9 lol
10) Do you color your hair? I used to dye it blonde but I've been growing my natural colour out for about 2 years.
11) What do you wear to bed? Nothing
12) Have you ever done anything illegal? Yup, lots of stupid shit.
13) Can you roll your tongue? I think so
14) Electric razor or blade? Blade
15) What kind of shoes usually? Flip flops or flats in the summer, brown riding boots in the winter.
16) Do you condone abortions? I wouldnt use the word condone, but I condone a womans right to make her own decisions.
17) What is your natural hair color (do you even remember?) Light brown
18) Future child’s name?Ava Iris Evelyn, Lincoln William Cohen
19) Do you snore? Ask Will
20) If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be? Greece, Italy or Australia
21) Do you sleep with stuffed animals? Nope
22) If you won the lottery, what would you do first?Buy a house and a car, put money into savings
23) Gold or platinum/white gold?White gold only!
24) Hamburger or hot dog? Neither, I don't eat meat
25) If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be?Cheese pizza
26) City, beach or country?Beach all the way!
27) What was the last thing you touched? Cheese nips
28) Where did you eat last?Sitting at my desk at work!
29) When’s the last time you cried?Probably over something stupid...probably like 2 days ago
30) Do you read blogs?Yes
31) Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex? If I had too.
32) Ever been involved with the police? Yes, but not for anything bad
33) What’s your favorite shampoo and soap? Whatever is on sale
34) Do you talk in your sleep?Nope
35) Ocean or pool?Ocean
38) Window seat or aisle?Window
39) Ever met anyone famous? Saw, not met.
40) Do you feel that you’ve had a truly successful life?Career wise-no, family -yes
Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?Twirl
42) Ricki Lake or Oprah Winfrey? Neither, thank you
43) Basketball or Football? Basketball i suppose
44) How long do your showers last?On the weekend like 25 minutes, on a work day 5-7 minutes
45) Automatic or stick shift?Automatic
46) Cake or ice cream?I don't want either, I'm not much into sweets
47) Are you self-conscious?Yes
48) Have you ever drunk so much you threw up?Yes, but not since college.
49) Have you ever given money to a beggar?No
50) Have you been in love?Yes
51) Where do you wish you were?At home, with Will, in bed watching a shitty movie and drinking tea
52) Do you wear socks with your shoes? Shoes, yes
53) Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?No
54) Can you tango?I could make an effort at it
55) Last gift you received?Will bought me bottle of Grey Goose
56) Last sport you played?Does running count? I run 4-5 times a week
57) Things you spend a lot of money on?Wine, food, clothes
58) Where do you live?Ottawa
59) Where were you born?Ottawa
60) Last wedding attended?My sisters!
63) Most hated food(s)? Thin soup or meat
64) What’s your favorite food?Grapes, pizza, butternut squash soup
65) Can you sing?Yes, but not well
66) Last person you instant messaged?Will
67) Last place you went on holiday?Palmerston Lake to the cottage
68) Favorite regular drink?Water or diet gingerale

Wasn't that fun?!?

Wednesday, August 31

It's September Tomorrow!

Where has August gone? I can't believe it's already September...the summer goes by way to quickly.

So I got on the scale this morning...and it said I gained weight! What the hell?!? I have been working out almost everyday and eating really well. I hate trying to lose weight, it's dumb, lol. Gaining weight makes me wanna order a large pizza and eat it all. But I'm not going to do that this time. This time I will stay motivated, keep eating right, and maintain my exercise. Hopefully I'll see something positive on the scale when I weigh in next Monday...

Tuesday, August 30

10 Things I'm Happy For!

1. 100 calorie packs of Cheese Nips - good god I love nips of cheese.
2. Coffee and chatter with my sister.
3. Running for 30 minutes straight...double my regular running time.
4. Finding out my cat pissed in the shower...hey, at least it wasn't on the floor and it was hella easy to clean up!
5. Being down 5lbs despite the pizza and white wine I consumed.
6. My new found motivation to get a new job...or my new found hatred of the job I have now...both will end up with the same result.
7. Finding a house to buy totally in our price range (we're not buying it, but its encouraging to see then possibility is so much closer then we think)
8. Finding leftover feta - still good, and just enough for us to have another fresh greek salad tonight! And some chicken breast for my meat eating man-friend
9. Losing track of time and realizing your already 2 hours into your shift.
10. More kitten snuggles!

Monday, August 29

that's right!

What has 2 thumbs and lost 5 pounds this week?


Yup, running daily, fruit and vegetable mouth orgy, minimal carbs, no pizza and only a small amount of booze. I don't expect these results again, the first week is always the best. But I am still very impressed with myself!

So much water...

Still haven't got my computer fixed, nor have I purchased a new one. So as of now I am limited to using Will's computer when he isn't busy playing Pitch Hitter or Tetris, lol.

I also can't post any pictures until I get my computer back. Which sucks big time cause I have some great pictures of the greek salad I made, my cute kitty basking in the sun, me after a workout, Will wearing a fake nail, and the kind of manicure I'm gonna get for the wedding. I will have to post all my pictures when I finally get my computer back/a new computer.

On another note - Will and I went to Chapters on Sunday to so some browsing and eventually some purchasing. I found a wedding planning book, a biography on those involved in the Salem Witch Trials, a biography of Anthony and Cleopatra, and Will found a book about Free Masonry...or something like that. It was quite a successful trip. We came home, ordered dinner, had a glass (or 3) of wine and settled into bed to do some reading.

Well I just finished a workout (5km in 44 minutes, then a 6 minute walk and 10 minutes of weights and strength training). I realize that's not marathon quality or anything, but I haven't worked out in like 2 years, and am now probably 30 lbs overweight (fuck shit cock balls...I hate myself) I am quite sweaty but not looking forward to washing my hair with these fake nails...

Friday, August 26


Posting quickly from Will's computer... as the ashes of mine are still smoldering in the corner...

I'm going to make a real greek salad tonight, and I am super excited. I LOOOVE greek salad and I don't know why I never make it. We're also getting a pizza and some sparkly. My job is so depressing the only cure is mimosas, pizza, and greek food.

So we've has some run in with the neighbors (I wont go into detail)...but I just wanted to comment on how hilariously immature these people are. They have a child, I just want to point out. Yet since she screamed at me (and I, be proud, kept my cool and was totally an adult about it SURPRISE) they have been parking there car in front of our back door, making as much noise out front, smoking everywhere...pretty much anything they think will piss us off. It makes me happy to see that I've had such an effect on someone.

Well I hear a tiny bottle of Grey Goose that my fantastic fiancee bought me calling...must go indulge in some UTItinis...yummy~


So my computer is fucked. Some sort of corrupt file, apparently one that is essential for turning the computer on.

My options seems to be:

a) cry about it - I've tried this one, it's not helping get the computer working

b) pay shipping and handeling (both ways) to send it to Sony to possibly have it fixed, and pay an additional 599 - 699 American dollars to have this happen - the computer cost $700 in the first place, so this is a stupid option...thanks Sony!

c) Throw said computer out the window, while laugh/crying crazily - although the most appealing of my options I think I will pass

d) Back up my files and buy a new computer - seems to be the easiest option

I guess we're taking a trip to Best Buy this weekend. I will never ever buy another Sony product ever! Thank god Will and I are the stingyest motherfuckers on earth! I think we have enough saved to buy me a half decent computer. Sucks though, I was gonna buy a dining room set with that cash. Oh well, what can you do, I suppose.

Wednesday, August 24

After I Do

What happens after I do, do we change into married people? Do I stop loving Big Brother, getting drunk for no reason, and start loving my job. No, I highly doubt that will happen. Such a big hubub about something.

I hear people talk and tell me that it does change the relationship to be married, but no one seems to have a clear explanation of how exactly. If thats true, then I don't want to get married anymore. I am more then happy with the way our relationship is.

Again, I don't believe anything is going to change. We will both have another ring, a piece of paper, and a nice tan from our Honeymoon...but as for life changes...I expect there to be none. Well other than my last name, I guess I'll have to learn how to spell Will's monstrosity of a last name at some point.

I'm excited for the party, seeing all my friends and family, meeting Will's out west family and friends, and going on an amazing vacation afterwards. The dress? Well, I'm not gonna complain about being able to buy a ridiculously fancy dress for the evening. Also having some very out of character glamour shots of us and our friends will be thrillingly hilarious.

I am excited to get married, but probably not for all the traditional reasons. I'm already an excellent faux wifey, and Will is a fantastic faux husband. Our faux marriage is far from perfect, but I am perfectly happy in it.

Monday, August 22

10 Things I'm Happy For!

1. Cranberry juice...
2. Buying the first thing for our wedding!
3. Halloween decorations.
4. Being woken up by kitten snuggles
5. New workout gear
6. Cleaning and organizing our spare room
7. Perfectly sweet gigantic green grapes
8. Being able to have dinner with Will every night from now on
9. Brown riding boots that look good with everything
10. Large wall calendars from Staples

Not included on the list but I am also happy for Officer Webster, for dropping my speeding ticket to a bylaw violation which significatly reduced the amount. And also for being the happiest OPP officer to ever pull me over at 6:30am...also the sneakiest, I have no idea where he was hiding but my stupid ass certainly didnt see him!

Sunday, August 21

home and shopping

So we're home from the cottage. What an amazing time. I very much enjoyed our routine: get up, coffee, breakfast, sit around, lunch, swimming, snacks, booze, swimming, tanning, booze, dinner, booze, passout. Its a tough life, but we're home now and right back into the swing of things.

Will starts his new job tomorrow and I think he's quite excited about it. It's a great step in the right direction for our little family. And I also got a call and an online interview for a job this weekend. I should hear about that by Wednesday, so I'm quite excited.

We needed to go grocery shopping to replenish the supplies for the week. We also made a quick stop at Michaels and picked up our wedding invitations!!! They are so cute, and 30% off - AWESOME!!

I am also fully obsessed with Halloween, and we had a 40% off coupon, so I bought this...

We also stopped at Walmart. I needed another sports bra (I got 2) and finally decided I should just get a whole workout outfit. The shirts were retarded cheap so I got 3 (while, grey and black) and the sports bras are black and this pink. I need new running shoes as well, but I would prefer to buy them in a real store, lol, where they know stuff about good shoes.

Will bought me GreyGoose so I think it's time for one last cocktail before I re-embark on another health kick!

Friday, August 12


I made so much pesto to take to the cottage. Pesto is my favorite thing ever, and it tastes even better when it's all homemade.

I destroyed my plant, lol, literally took EVERY single leaf off.
Such a bright amazing green!
All ready to take to the cottage! I'm very excited. I still have a lot of stufdf left to pack and organize. H&D are bringing the cats over tomorrow morning and then they are heading to my parents place for lunch. Will has to work until 2 so we're going to meet everyone there probably around 5 or 6ish.

Thursday, August 11


How long exactly am I going away for? I have no control when I'm packing. I think I have enough clothes to last 2 weeks, but this is honestly a controlled amount. Why do I need 10 idea...

Monday, August 8

Too Much?

So I have been doing some research on center pieces, and since it was so boring working on Sunday my manager and I were looking into different options. I don't really like flowers that much so I probably wont be using many, which will keep costs down...and also go with my offbeat self.

I'm not sure if this is "too much", it's very grand, which I like. I would use less white and I'm going for a fairly dark, romantic, dramatic kind of wedding. I saw another one that was similar but the feathers were in a vase filled with pearls. I don't like the pearl idea, I was thinking plums, the perfect colour. I'm too weird for my own good, I need Will to keep my grounded with this wedding. One of my bridemaids suggested they all wear fascinators...she was possibly joking, but I still love the idea. Oh god, this wedding is gonna be crazy awesome.

Sunday, August 7


I made Will an amazing dinner tonight. Spice Italian sausage, red pepper, spinach, and brown rice. All cooked in white wine and veggie broth. It certainly smells good and Will isn't having an issues eating it. Dinner would be so much easier if I ate meat, I spend a lot more time cooking for him then I do cooking for me. I just feel like I have a lot more options with his food. Also, all the cooking I did in college was with meat, so thats probably another reason I prefer to cook for Will.

working on a sunday

Another long boring day of work, thank god it's almost over. Only 1 more hour!

I'm getting very excited to go to the cottage. I have mentally planned what I need to bring, and obviously I am bringing too much. How many dresses does a girl need for 5 days? Well, at least 7, and 4 bathing suits and probably 3 sweaters. Is it going to be cold? Who knows, but if it is I will be prepared. I'm glad we bought that cooler tho cause we're planning on bringing booze and snacks for the week. I'm sure my mom has everything meal planned down to the second, but having some extra food never hurts. I'm also going to bring my blender and some frozen fruit so I can have my smoothies in the morning. And if some mararitas accidentally make the trip with me I will be prepared.

Guess I should get back to work...or not...

Saturday, August 6

Cottage Shopping!

So I went to Walmart with my sister yesterday for some deliciously cheap shopping for the cottage. Got some essentials like sunscreen and razors, and of course a few completely unnecessary items.

A couple of over sized tank top for chilling by the water.
A couple of sweaters that I don't need nor do I have any room for more clothes...but anyway. I also got new sheets and pillow cases. The colour is called Orchid, my favorite! Don't mind MacGuffin, he's a scene stealer.

Now back to cleaning, I've been neglectful the past couple of weeks.

Friday, August 5

I'm back.

It's been too long since I've updated this thing. I also go on sprees ofn blogging and then I forget about it. Kinda the same way I work out, which is not a good thing.

I'm still working at the same place, although not doing retention anymore. Not that I was fired from it, I was just backup and I guess they have enough staff right now to handle the calls. So I'm looking for a new job and I am getting bored with this one. Same shit, day after day...and I mean literally the same. Didn't get your paper? I'm sorry, I'll send another one. Didn't get your paper? I'm sorry, I'll send another one. Didn't get your paper? I'm sorry, I'll send another one. Also been discussing moving out of Ottawa with my manfriend...(oh by the way my man friend is now my fiancee man friend). He is not 100% sold on the idea yet, but I think he is still considering it.

Doing a lot of wedding planning - small stuff like deciding of dress styles, colours, checking prices of rentals, favours and all that fun shit. I've already decided on a dark purple theme, probably with some silver accents. I think we have decided on a location as well, its a small golf course out in North Gower. It's cheap, and pretty and (although 40 minute drive) a great location for pictures. Since its a winter wedding we wont get all the flower and leafs and shit, but they have some nice scenery around the grounds to take pictures at. Old fences, rocks, stair cases in the forest - cool stuff like that which would look awesome in black and white pictures.

I am also committed to finally getting back to running. Everytime I start running again I get off track in about a week or so. I have to figure out a way to keep my motivation, other then Will "reminding" me to do it. I know he's only trying to help but my fucked up mind goes right to assuming he thinks I'm fat and need to workout. Crazy, I know, but I can't help it. I'm ridiculously sensitive about stuff like that.

I also want to start taking more pictures of things we do. I'm hoping restarting this blog will remind me to take pictures so I can post all the fun shit we do, especially now with wedding planning I have lots of stressfully fun things happening in the next year.

Saturday, March 12


It has been a rollercoaster last couple of weeks. I've been sick, then better, then sicker, now better again. I had a really bad sore throat for about a day, then 3 days of total head congestion, a day of feeling better, and then a full week of coughing, weezing, and not being able to breath. It was freaking horrible. I have been off work, no energy, not allowed to work out. But I'm slowly on the mend. I'm able to breath for the most part, as long as I'm not trying to sleep, and I'm back at work.

I've started as back-up retention at work, which is a nice change. And it's a great opportunity to make more money, lots of incentives for saving customers, donated papers, eeditions... Which is very useful right now since I've only worked 3 days in the last 2 weeks...I need all the money I can get.

Saturday, February 26

first week

The first week of my mission to fit into my summer clothes is almost over. I'm doing really well. Started at 170lbs (holy shit, how did I gain 30 pounds in a year?) and I'm already down to 164.4lbs. I'm happy with that. Basically I am too cheap/poor to buy new summer clothes, so I'd rather just fit back into the ones I already have, lol. I think I only need to get down to like 150lbs for that too happen. I'm not in any rush though, it's not gonna be warm until like July anyway.

I'm looking forward to Will getting home so I can have some veggie pizza, mmmmmm, pizzzza!

Monday, February 21


Did my first run today, and man did I forget how much I love running. Did a mile in 11.45 minutes, which is pretty good considering its been 2 years since I've worked out. I can probably get that down to 10 minutes in a couple of weeks. Thinking if I keep on track I can probably loose a few lbs this week, but i'll keep you updated on my progress. Just the lbs lost, a lady never tells her weight or age, lol. Just kidding, I'm no lady.

Parents are coming in today for a visit, which will be nice. And I believe they are gonna take us out to dinner at Boston Pizza. I was looking online to see the calories in some of the stuff they serve there. Blew my freakin' mind. A greek salad is 1040 calories...for a fucking salad. Thats crazy.

Guess I should shower and get dressed or parents probably don't wanna see sweaty gross Siobhan

Sunday, February 20

Got my treadmill!!! And it only took an hour or so to set up. So I'm having my final blow out night of pizza and wine before I get back to health.

Will also broke our coffee maker the other day so we picked up a programmable one at Canadian Tire for only like $30.00. Pretty good deal.

Well I need to get back to my wine, and order us some pizza.

Saturday, February 19


Had a lovely valentines day. We went out for lunch at Cyranos, then came home and we cooked dinner together. Pretty chill. But it's always nice to actually spend some time with Will, lol. I don't get to do that much. I made (Will mostly just cut stuff, lol) steak, sauteed mushrooms with gravy, garlic mashed potatos, steamed broccoli/cauliflower, and cupcakes for dessert. Oh and of course bubbly...maybe a little too much bubbly. I normally wouldn't say that but I vaguly remember stumbling up the stairs to bed and Will claims I was slurring the words while playing Guitar Hero...thank god I'm a hot drunk, LOL!

Lots of stuff going on on the work front. Will has the possibility of getting a keyholder postion at H.O...which hopefully would mean more money. And they are making me backup (yes backup to something ELSE) retention, which could possibly make me more money. And thank god for both of those things. Financially we aren't actually doing too bad, but extra money never hurt anyone.

I'm gonna go buy a treadmill tomorrow. I finally got frusterated with myself enough to bite the bullet. I miss running and I just never felt like I was actually getting a workout on the eliptical. So wish the Scottish in me good luck...I'm totally gonna need a glass of wine after spending that much money.

Sunday, February 13


Phew, been so busy I haven't been able to update this thing. Finally done training and now I'm back to phones until they decide I'm training again, lol, love that job security!

I have a four day weekend which is fantastic. I spent yesterday cleaning everything and washing anything. The house looks fantastic. Which is awesome, cause now I can spend the next 3 days doing pretty much nothing. When Will gets home from work tonight we're gonna go buy some groceries for dinner tomorrow night. I think we're gonna do some steak, potato, steamed veggies, and a salad. Aaanndd depending on the basil situation I might make some pesto.

I can't wait until the summer so I can have a garden with my own herbs in it. I'm thinking I'm gonna take some time off once it gets warm and extend my garden. Maybe see if my mom wants to come help, with the promise of cocktails and free food. The people who used to live here kind of let the garden go nuts, and for some reason they put a lot of rocks in the garden. I guess I'll get Will to do all the digging and shit, and then my mom and I (pending her acceptance) can do all the fun planting and drinking, lol.

Will and I are also thinking about getting a dog. We have been checking out breeds and prices...since I'm such a cheap ass I need to make 6 or 7 lists and budgets before I can commit to anything. So far it looks like it would be completely doable. Especially if Will does get this full-time position at the end of February. We've been looking at min pins and labs so far. A lab mix would be great, mixed with a medium sized breed. Ideally we would want a medium sized dog that is fairly low key. Nothing that wants to run everywhere, lol, walks I'm okay with but I'm not going for a run with a dog when it's minus 40.

Sunday, January 23


Had a fabulous KFB. Turns out were not as old as we thought, we were able to make it past midnight both Friday AND Saturday! Crazy. Although I love my ladies and I wish I could see them more, this whole drunken weekend thing can't happen more often, lol. I, apparently, am not 19 anymore. Weird.

Work is going well, still doing a lot of training and loving it. I'm hoping this might turn into a fulltime job. I don't mind being on the phones but I really love training the new hires. If we could find a way to schedule uptraining for agents who feel they need it I think it would be a very viable option to keep us on fulltime. But we will see how it goes. I am very happy with the way things are going and take it from there.

I have also been having a lot of issues with my car the past couple of weeks. The other day my car basically exploded, oil was bad. Turns out the motor blew and we had to get a brand new one. That was a terrible carless week. Then about 3 days after I finally got Hank back the car randomly shut itself off and would not turn back on. Turns out it has some sort of emergency security system that "thought the car was being stolen" so it disconnected the engine. Thank god that only took a day to fix. Fingers crossed that's the last issue I have for a while...

Thursday, January 13


I would update your on the FABULOUS week I've had, but I'm hungry, my head hurts and I'm tired...

Sunday, January 9

What a terrible week

So on Tuesday my car decided it no longer wanted to run, and exploded oil all over my work parking lot. After a few frantic calls to my parents, my dad got it towed and it is now being fixed. I guess the motor or something "blew". So this week I have been frantically figuring out how I am going to get to and from work...without having to take a bus. Nothing against the bus system, I've just never been on one before and to be completly honest I'm scared of them

The week ended a little nicer though. Turns out next week I will be up training CSS, which means another week off the phones. And the new class begins January 17th, so there is another 4 weeks off the phones. I'm liking this whole training thing, I wish I could do it full time.

Monday, January 3

Back to Work

My first day back to work in 5 days was quite the pleasant surprise. My schedule has me on the phones for the next 3 weeks,but it turns out it was a scheduling error and I'm actually not back on the phones until sometime in February. This made me extreamly happy! I don't mind being on the phones, but every day I am in training I realized I love it more and more. It seems like something I could actually do for a living.

After such wonderful news at work, and having a very easy yet rewarding day Will and I settled into a glass of wine and some shitty tv for the evening. Always a satisfying way to end a day.

Sunday, January 2

Damn you AE

So I'm fully convinced American Eagle has changed there pant sizes AGAIN! The pants I have been wearing, and have been falling off of me are a 4. The pants I wore to go shopping today, and are a little tight, are a 2. Both are American Eagle jeans purchased in the last year or so. Today I go in to buy pants and apparently now I am an 8 or 10. Which is fine, it's just crazy how they change the sizes in that store so much. This happened a couple of years ago and that day ended with my bawling in the change room, slamming a door, and scaring the crap out of the lovely staff at the Bayshore location.

But this was a more successful today. I managed to get 2 pairs of pants, a few shirts and a sweater. All on sale. I can finally throw out my old jeans with the gigantic hole in the crotch...when it was hot I very much enjoyed the southern breeze, but now that's it's winter I need to keep my pumpum warm.

Saturday, January 1

New Year, New Blog

Another year begins and again I decide to try and maintain another blog. Let's see how long this one lasts.

We rung in the new year with movies and bubbly, a very chill evening but very pleasant. A lot has happened in the last year. I am still in the same job, with Sunmedia, but I have taken on some responsibilities as a "Learning Support Coach" which basically means I train the new hires. Will is still working at Home Outfitters but has moved to the store in Orleans. He also took on a seasonal position at LCBO for some extra cash. Fingers crossed he might be able to get in there full time, the benefits alone would be more then worth it.

In November we moved from our bird shit covered apartment in Mooneys Bay to a townhouse off Montreal rd. Technically, I suppose, it is Vanier, but it's not a sketchy neighborhood. Two bedrooms, lots more room, a basement with laundry, and a garage. It's only like $50 more then our apartment but at least double the space.

I'm quite happy with the developments of the last year, hopefully 2011 is just as good to us.